It has been many years since I first anticipated this stage of my life, during a hurricane, with my parents, surrounded by strangers

It has been many years since I first anticipated this stage of my life, during a hurricane, with my parents, surrounded by strangers
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instrumentation :  15-person wind ensemble + 3 violas

2009
duration :  11’10"
commissioned by Yohei Sato
premiere :  04.11.09 by students of the Boston Conservatory; Yohei Sato, conductor, Boston


        Years ago I waited out a hurricane in a shelter on Cape Cod. There is very little about that day which I now remember, yet ever since then I have periodically been made to recall details from the experience- a sound, smell, a word mysteriously conjuring old images. I have the inescapable sense that my mind is now configured to orient its compass toward and handful of moments in the past, and more strangely, possibly toward moments still to come.
        The germinating idea behind this piece was the intersection between anticipation and recollection. In music these are powerful tools for the composer. This music is self- referential, with sounds recurring throughout the piece unpredictably. I did not seek to create a formal structure out of the reiterations of these specific musical units. Rather, I hope they trigger a sense of recognition, both of past and of future.
        Both across the span of the piece but also across a larger stretch of time there are musical references- a motive from Sibelius’ 5th Symphony makes its way into the music. In my experience of the piece this musical anchor lends a level of implication and deepening memory which cannot otherwise be created within such a short piece. These memories and elusive predictions all represent a web of events, compasses in time all pointing their needles to now.

[performed by the Boston Conservatory Sinfonietta; Eric Hewitt, conductor]